well, its the examination period and today was science.
and yes, i left a lot of blanks
yes, i will fail.
yes, i hate physics! D:
but..
yesterday was the worst day of my life.
well, before i tell you why,
let me tell you that i'm addicted to apple ipod classic right now.
i'm literally dying to get a ipod classic!
i'm starving myself so that i could save enough money.
and, the classic costs $388.
i currently have $132 in my savings.
counting the money that people owe me,
i will have about $257.
the rest i would have to earn during the school hols.
if i do well,
my dad would BUY ONE for me.
but of course,
i won't. sigh. ):
reality is tough.
anyway, let me get on to "that day"
pause.
wait, should i say their names?
well, since i've already forgiven them,
i shall call the girl X and the guy S.
you know why i give the guy S?
you guess for yourself.
BUT IT IS DEF NOT "THAT" WORD, which contains 3 letters. :D
anyway, back to the story.
well, it started out like any other day.
then we had our exams.
and during the exams, which was geo,
and i suck at it,
S and his friends were making a hell lot of noise.
and S screeched his chair and got all girly
cos there was a darn fly.
but he claims that it was a bee.
whatever. -.-
it was still tiny and you could flick it away.
i also hate no, despise insects but
it was so tiny and using the paper,
i could flick it off without even screeching.
and i'm a girl. -.-
after the exams,
i said to X, "look how ____ __ is behaving."
and X says she also agree and finds him irritating too.
and since they were doing this every exam,
i told X to tell S not to do it again.
then when my mum asked me how was my exam,
i told her about a group of boys bla, bla, bla...
and she didn't believe me.
so she told me off,
told me that i shouldn't lie,
and i ended up crying in the car.
so you see why i'm so angry at S?
then, when we went to the market to eat,
people kept staring at me cos my face was red.
i tried to ignore them but i felt terrible.
then when i was on the way home,
i told X what happened.
she didn't reply.
so when i got home, i called her.
she was at mac, WITH S!!!!!
i was so angry!
after hearing me like for 10 min and agreed with me,
she went out with S!!!
i was so angry so i had an argument with X.
when the argument was over,
i revised my science.
then i had this msg.
it was from S.
he said really mean things like:
"the world does not revolove around you,
whatever you do it, you do it for yourself." and
"i think you got a screw loose up in that tiny head of yours,
go get i checked.
alot of people find you annoying, and i SERIOUSLY agree.
you think you are a freaking princess for goodness sake.
well, you're just a little bratty, spoiled, arrofant, selfish
powerless little girl."
do you think thats mean?
well, i seriously think so.
after i read this, i couldn't control the tears.
i dashed to the toilet and started crying.
i cried and cried.
and it caused hiccups.
then the phone rang.
somehow i knew it was my phone.
and i took the phone and returned to the toilet.
but my mum saw me crying.
she asked me what was wrong.
i told her about S but changed the story,
so that X would be safe.
but made S sound more....
so that i could protect what really happened with S and X.
but i was still angry with X but i promised.
anyway, she wrapped me in her arms and comforted me.
then she told me to go to sleep but i cant.
and S just kept sending more and more horrid stuff.
i kept crying.
i call X.
she comforted me and said she was sorry as she could prevented
all this from happening.
i said it was not her fault.
she insisted to let her tick S off.
at first i said no,
then i relented.
i cried the whole day.
when i was sleeping, too. :)
i have forgiven S but will not talk to him.
i'll treat him coldly.
well, i know alot of people side with him.
INCLUDING X!!!!
she says he must have thought....
and kept on making excuses.
i was angry at first,
but i told myself not to.
the anger and hate is still inside of me,
but has gradually lessened.
i really don't want to experience this again.
ever.
and to S,
you are the meanest person on earth.
and worst of all,
YOU ARE A CHRISTIAN.
now, let me ask you, what kind of christian are you?
and ask yourself, whether
YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER.
think carefully.
and you better thank god that i've even forgiven you.
i wouldn't have forgiven you if not for god, ok.
you better pray hard that you don't get paid back.
cos you'll need it.
revenge is the old me.
now, i'll let god do the job,
which is seven times more painful.
don't believe me?
read the bible.