But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
that I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
keep , keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep , keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep , keep bleeding love
You cut me open


I think that this song really relates to what I'm going through right now
Yes , that feeling is back .
But this time its really different .
I don't know how to explain it .

I guess I've been hurt many times before .
And so when I seeked Sylvia's opinion ,
she told me that I can't stop standing doing nothing .
And she asked me to do something which was totally impossible for me .

And when I said no ,
she said that if i don't do something and he is taken away ,
i'll be hurting myself all again .

I mean I wanna tell him .
But I can't .
I don't have the courage to .
Plus , I'm too young to have a bf .
Maybe 2 or 3 years later .

So I guess I've made a decision .
I'll do almost nothing .
What I mean is ,
that i'll do nothing but i'll try my best to get him to notice me .

and if ,
thats a really big IF ,
he did ask me ______ ,
which is totally impossible ,
I guess I'll tell him that I'll think about it
cos I'll really think about it .

I've asked my mum about her opinion about a young girl getting a bf .
And she objected very strongly .
So its very scary .
And anyway , i still can't go out with my friends !

She still treats me as a kid !
wtf .
I don't wanna be like the golden bird that is
caged and so protective by its master .
I wanna spread my wings & fly too , you know .

Well , I guess this is the end .


I've always wondered what love feels like
I thought about it day & night ,
still not knowing the answer .
I wanted to know how a true love's first kiss
that were seen in fairytales felt like .
I wanted to know how being loved felt like ,
as in Romeo & Juliet .
But I guess I'll never know ..