oopsie... haven't been blogging much this month. :x
anyway, a lot has been going on
and i've been slogging my guts out this holiday.
and this 19 June, KK (King Kids- my church's children group)
has organised a suuper FUN outing.
BUT
i have.. i never thought i'd say this, but.. sickening dance!
what the freaking hell.
ok, i didn't blog about this before cos i haven't touched the com for eons.
anyway, i'm starting to hate dance.
seriously.
I heart dance but we have a performance coming up on 5 July.
and we only have a few practices left.
and lao shi has turned into a complete nightmare/monster/etc...
everytime i go dance,
i feel like i've entered a war.
i feel scared.
EVERY SINGLE LESSON I GET SCOLDED.
EVERYONE GETS SCOLDED.
I CRIED 2 TIMES ALREADY.
we already told a teacher and it only worked for 1 lesson.
but me & adelene could tell she was controlling herself.
she thinks that we think she is against us when she scolds us.
but the thing is, we don't.
i just think that maybe she could tolerate her anger a bit more.
and, we're just sec 1.
you don't expect us to be a pro dance within a night, right?
and you guys know i'm bad at chinese.
and she is from china.
so maybe there is a language difficulty?
i don't know, because of this whole dance,
i am so stressed out.
i thought that performing would be fun.
but it is turning out to be a complete nightmare.
if i could turn back time,
i probably would not join dance.
i'm not sure if i would quit dance after this performance.
y'all would say yes, you should.
but... i still love dance.
its just lao shi.
maybe it isn't worth giving up dance just because of her.
but i don't know.
fear is getting the better of me.
i ddon't what would become of me during SYF.
Melanie doesn't know how i feel,
cos she is in fire and is taught by pei shan lao shi.
a MUCH BETTER teacher.
although Audrey is also in fire,
she knows how i feel cos she too got scolded by Ms Wendi.
Melanie, trust me.
you're gonna be like a duck in a sea next yar during SYF.
enjoy our peace now cos it ain't gonna last.
LOL. anyway, everyone will get scolded.
especially me.
i don't know what the next year sec 1 will endure.
LOL.
anyway, lets not talk about dance anymore.
lets think of it as history.
lets think fun, fun, FUNNN!
speaking of fun,
my dad got the nintendo wii on Sunday.
And since then,
my bro and me couldn't keep our hands off it!
LOL.
gee, doing homework sure is gonna be a party pooper.
speaking about homework,
i'm currently doing Mdm Valli's bio homework.
current status of that work: stuck.
sheesh.
and for English,
i am currently doing the reader's digest thingy.
Status: Slow
oh well.
and for my book review,
i can't seem to find the perfect book for it!
my last one was Scarlett by Cathy Cassidy.
from the library. great book. fab, in fact.
oh, oh!
i just thought of the perfect book.
my life starring mum by....
err, i forgot.
but the main problem is,
the book isn't with me!
gosh.
i'll have to hunt it down.
but it is such a nice book,
most probably it is in the hands of another person.
worst comes to worst,
i'll choose another book. :D
i just finished mopping the floor.
my mum would give me 160 bucks if i helped her clean up the house.
yeah man!
this post shall end here.
my hands are itching for a game with the wii.
LOL.
ciao! :p

well, its the examination period and today was science.
and yes, i left a lot of blanks
yes, i will fail.
yes, i hate physics! D:
but..
yesterday was the worst day of my life.
well, before i tell you why,
let me tell you that i'm addicted to apple ipod classic right now.
i'm literally dying to get a ipod classic!
i'm starving myself so that i could save enough money.
and, the classic costs $388.
i currently have $132 in my savings.
counting the money that people owe me,
i will have about $257.
the rest i would have to earn during the school hols.
if i do well,
my dad would BUY ONE for me.
but of course,
i won't. sigh. ):
reality is tough.
anyway, let me get on to "that day"
pause.
wait, should i say their names?
well, since i've already forgiven them,
i shall call the girl X and the guy S.
you know why i give the guy S?
you guess for yourself.
BUT IT IS DEF NOT "THAT" WORD, which contains 3 letters. :D
anyway, back to the story.
well, it started out like any other day.
then we had our exams.
and during the exams, which was geo,
and i suck at it,
S and his friends were making a hell lot of noise.
and S screeched his chair and got all girly
cos there was a darn fly.
but he claims that it was a bee.
whatever. -.-
it was still tiny and you could flick it away.
i also hate no, despise insects but
it was so tiny and using the paper,
i could flick it off without even screeching.
and i'm a girl. -.-
after the exams,
i said to X, "look how ____ __ is behaving."
and X says she also agree and finds him irritating too.
and since they were doing this every exam,
i told X to tell S not to do it again.
then when my mum asked me how was my exam,
i told her about a group of boys bla, bla, bla...
and she didn't believe me.
so she told me off,
told me that i shouldn't lie,
and i ended up crying in the car.
so you see why i'm so angry at S?
then, when we went to the market to eat,
people kept staring at me cos my face was red.
i tried to ignore them but i felt terrible.
then when i was on the way home,
i told X what happened.
she didn't reply.
so when i got home, i called her.
she was at mac, WITH S!!!!!
i was so angry!
after hearing me like for 10 min and agreed with me,
she went out with S!!!
i was so angry so i had an argument with X.
when the argument was over,
i revised my science.
then i had this msg.
it was from S.
he said really mean things like:
"the world does not revolove around you,
whatever you do it, you do it for yourself." and
"i think you got a screw loose up in that tiny head of yours,
go get i checked.
alot of people find you annoying, and i SERIOUSLY agree.
you think you are a freaking princess for goodness sake.
well, you're just a little bratty, spoiled, arrofant, selfish
powerless little girl."
do you think thats mean?
well, i seriously think so.
after i read this, i couldn't control the tears.
i dashed to the toilet and started crying.
i cried and cried.
and it caused hiccups.
then the phone rang.
somehow i knew it was my phone.
and i took the phone and returned to the toilet.
but my mum saw me crying.
she asked me what was wrong.
i told her about S but changed the story,
so that X would be safe.
but made S sound more....
so that i could protect what really happened with S and X.
but i was still angry with X but i promised.
anyway, she wrapped me in her arms and comforted me.
then she told me to go to sleep but i cant.
and S just kept sending more and more horrid stuff.
i kept crying.
i call X.
she comforted me and said she was sorry as she could prevented
all this from happening.
i said it was not her fault.
she insisted to let her tick S off.
at first i said no,
then i relented.
i cried the whole day.
when i was sleeping, too. :)
i have forgiven S but will not talk to him.
i'll treat him coldly.
well, i know alot of people side with him.
INCLUDING X!!!!
she says he must have thought....
and kept on making excuses.
i was angry at first,
but i told myself not to.
the anger and hate is still inside of me,
but has gradually lessened.
i really don't want to experience this again.
ever.
and to S,
you are the meanest person on earth.
and worst of all,
YOU ARE A CHRISTIAN.
now, let me ask you, what kind of christian are you?
and ask yourself, whether
YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER.
think carefully.
and you better thank god that i've even forgiven you.
i wouldn't have forgiven you if not for god, ok.
you better pray hard that you don't get paid back.
cos you'll need it.
revenge is the old me.
now, i'll let god do the job,
which is seven times more painful.
don't believe me?
read the bible.

Today me and mellie went to dine in the dark.
it was so FUNNNNNNNN!
well, at first when i stepped into the room,
i got scared because it really was PITCH BLACK DARK.
whether you close your eyes or not made no difference.
but soon when there were more people in the room,
it became more lively, especially with Ryan in the room.
the joker. heh.
we were not in the same room as the others cos
there was an 8 sitter room and a 12 sitter room.
Candice was in another room and i heard that
she cried from the others and her mom needed to calm her down.
it was so funny in the room.
me and melanie were like making fools of ourselves in the room.
but of course,
no one could see anything.
but they could hear us laughing and giggling.
LOL.
we played scissors paper stone too.
and you must be asking,
how can we play if we can't even see anything?
well, we used our sense of touch. :)
and once,
when mel wanted to try my spaggetti,
she poked her fork at my face.
LOL.
i was like, eeeeeewwwwwww.
(cos i thought she used it. but she didn't)
and we were laughing madly.
and Ryan kept disturbing kor kor Eugene.
i think its really meaningful,
cos you get to feel how is like being blind.
and like candice, you get VERY SCARED.
for us, it is just lunch for 2 hours.
but for the blind, it is forever.
i mean, first you could see light,
then you could see nothing at all.
it is really scary.
and our waitress, May, was super friendly.
at first i was quite freaked out cos she looked different from us.
then when we were in the room,
where we saw nothing at all,
i realised she was very friendly. :D
oh, did i mention that when we poured our drinks into the cup,
it overflowed and we don't even know?
and you don't even know if the water was coming down or not.
LOL.
well, i encourage all of you guys to go dine in the dark.
you experience what it is like to be blind,
AND learn some skills as well.
what skills?
hmmmm, i can't enxplain that to you.
cos i don't know how to. :D
i guess you'll just have to go there youself. :)

Today is the last day of IT training. -.-
And, we created gans. :D
Here is what we are.

Me- xiao mei
Mel- Er jie
Kimberly- Da jie'
Adelene- Mama
Clara- Mummy
Shun Jun- Daddy :D
John- Jie fu
Rou Xuan- Ah bu

so basically, Mummy is a lesbian and she has 2 les partners.
One is Adelene and the other is Shun Jun. :D
And Rou Xuan is my grandma. haha. :D
Surfing the net right now.
omg, have to skip dance today.
boo hoo. :(
But luckily tomorrow still have dance. hehe. :D
anyway, this is just a quick update. :D

p.s IT lessons are BOOORING! D:

EDITED: i forgive them now. :DD
They are now one of my loved ones. <3
Will explain in next post. Sorry you both. :)

ok, this shall be an anger post.
i know i sounded happy at today's last post.
well, it was until the bus ride home with the freaks.
Shall i mention their names?
hmmm, YES.
John, allegedly inulted and criticised me,
by calling me an ah lian.
ok, let me tell you this.
I, FOR ONE, AM NOT AN AH LIAN.
and you know why he said that,
cos my hair was centre-parted. -.-
Melanie's hair is also centre-parted,
but he said her face don't look like ah lian.
i know your two stead and whatever,
but please,
you don't need to insult me, right?
and,
i thought that Melanie would come back me up.
but, she just stood there, smiling & laughing.
I mean, its not a joke or something right?
he was serious.
and i said i wasn't talking to them anymore.
they thought i wasn't serious.
well, let me tell you this.
I AM.
Don't you know that i am very petty?
well, too bad. :(
and don't stare at me like i'm a freak, ok?
i only posted that comment at your friendster cos
you read my blog profile aloud and Jeremy was there.
By doing that,
you made a BIG MISTAKE.
I always get back at people somehow, someway.
I'm no pushover.
get that in your head.
i really regretted bringing you two together.
i would write that in my Quickwrite,
but i handed i my quickwrite to Mr Woo already.
sheesh.
and, get this.
MELANIE IS HORNY.
she said to me today,
when we disturbed Bryan,
aka Gay Ong.
she said, "later Bryan ask the barbie doll, "eh, want to masturbate?"
disgusting right?
eeeeeeewwwwww.
oh, and i don't care if you post on your blog about the toilet incident.
i forgotten to close the door,
but you didn't see anything right?
and it wasn't on purpose.
so what if Clara they all like you better?
i don't care.
because they don't know the real you.
and,
stop pushing the blame to me that i told adelene
that you and John were going steady.
You gave me the permission to, ok?
don't anyhow talk nonsense.
oh, and John,
you call me ah lian?
don't you think that mel is more lian?
at least i talk proper english.
i don't use bai as bye.
i think it is utter disgust and ah lian-ish.
oh, and the hair is mine.
what i do with it has nothing to do with you.
so shut up, alright?
I know i'm being mean,
but that is what you get when you call me an ah lian.
The one thing i hate most is being called an ah lian.
Guess you didn't know, huh.
too bad. D:
no one told ya.
well, now you know.
but its too late. :D

hello people! :D
currently at my school's computer lab posting. hehe :)
I'm having IT training right now.
And trust me, its superbly boring.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR. -.-
Anyway, I'm VERY HAPPY for them. :D
hehe, thats right, its you lovebirds.
wahahahahahaha.
Anyway, i met up with Syl a few days ago
and we took neoprints. YAY!
I'm a officially a neo addict.
LOL.
Ok...
People around me are playing games and have sounds,
which is quite....
Nevermind, I can't describe it.
Today we had our NAPHA.
and so far,
I have passed all of the stations but i wanna do a re-test next week.
I WANT AN A!!! D:
hehe.
Mel is also posting right now too. :)
if i'm not wrong,
at the rate i'm going right now,
I shall be MIA-ing until next week, i think.
Not so sure.
Alright, i shall end here. :DD

hello people,
i know i have been mia-ing for quite long,
but don't blame me.
blame homework. :D
ok, alot has happened the past few days.
John knows i like him,
then we had a fight yesterday and i felt like ripping his head off,
while he felt like cutting me into pieces.
but it was all a misunderstanding. hehe.
and we're really good friends now.
repeat the word, FRIENDS.
he is mel's property from now on.
Long story. (:
and, i've forgotten all about him
and through with boys.
i'm still young.
the two love birds made a deal with us that they will go steady
if me and Audrey would go steady.
puh-lees!
i'll never stead!
not right now.
when i go JC or Poly, maybe?
hehe.
anyway, today was commendation day.
and Esther will be announced head prefect today.
hehe.
and Veluriya is the third senior prefect and,
will be taking over as dance head.
how cool is that? :D
But i must say,
it would be quite a pity to see Haniz and Candice go.
they are THE BEST DANCERS EVER. Esp Haniz.
Anyway, i know Veluriya would catch up. (:
anyway, went mac today with
John, Audrey, Jean, Zhi Ting and Clara.
it was FUN.
but Zhi Ting and Jean left early.
and we talked and talked and talked.
we were there for about 4 hours.
LOL.
and Clara treated us to fries,
while John treated us to ice-cream.
Many thanks to you both. <3
Pictures will be uploaded asap.
:DD ciao!

i changed my skin today.
i know i don't have a wishlist and a tagboard.
don't rub it in.
i'll fix that tomorrow. :D
ok, today in school.
went to school.
had PE.
But Mr Mak didn't come so we didn't have PE.
WOO HOO!
this is the first time i am so glad we don't have PE.
I SERIOUSLY HATE PE NOW.
me, Shafs and mel played Truth or Dare.
I still remember yesterday,
when mel dared me to go underneath
HS's chair to take his water bottle.
then when i was underneath,
HS screeched his chair,
unknown that i was underneath his chair.
and my ears were so damn painful.
so i shouted, "oh my god!"
and Mrs Sanmugam was staring at me,
asking "are you okay?"
and the whole class was staring at me
and they were laughing.
it was sooo embarrassing.
mel, ass you!
anyway,
Truth or Dare has been my prime.
i dared mel to do emberrassing stuff. (:
I know, i'm evil.
but its revenge.
mwa hahahhahahaha.
ok, i'm mad.
anyway, later we had LSS1.
craps.
recess.
normal stuff.
EL.
Mr Woo let us discuss the debate thingy.
the asshole Sy Yong Da kept messing up my hair.
so i looked like a ghost.
and so i kicked him while he was laughing. -.-
but he still kept messing my hair when it was neat again.
ass him. -.-
anyway, today i'm very happy.
can't tell you why. :DD

Labels: my boring life :D